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Tread lightly—the content in this narrative may be triggering to some. At a young age, I was raped. Contrary to research, I then sought out sex. I went in pursuit of it. The more dangerous the better. Because I believed that I only enjoyed sex if it was violent.

It is only now, years later, that I understand that I am not alone in this fact. In my early teens, I had gone on a date in the city with a friend of a friend. When we got back to our local train station, he said he needed to pick something up from a clubhouse and, as it was on my way home, I went with him. We walked past estates friends lived on and through wooded areas to get to his training ground. As we walked, he told me he had the keys, as his coach sometimes let him practice on weekends.

We walked into the clubhouse but instead of going to pick his equipment up, he turned away and locked the door behind him. I know he pushed me down and held me there while he moved his sweaty hands up my legs. He then performed Rape orgasm stories sex on me; the sound of his tongue licking my insides makes me feel sick even today. After what seemed like a few painful minutes he had pressed the weight of his body down on my wrists and my hips—and proceeded to put his dick inside of me.

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Through tears, I had pleaded with him to stop but I had lost all power to push him away. I remember feeling frozen to the spot, like all my strength had been zapped out of me. He eventually came and hastily left without so much of a glance or explanation. I felt pathetic and useless throughout the ordeal. He had got what he wanted. I never saw or heard from him again. Afterward, I was abandoned in the clubhouse, semi-clothed and disorientated. This was just me, I told myself: I like violent sex, I like being scared.

It was easier believing this, than believing that I would just lie there and not defend myself. I would not have been that weak. What is Rape orgasm stories clear are those tears running down my face, my silk dress pushed up against my thighs by his clammy hands and the table sticking into my back. I can also remember vividly my horrified shock when I came. This moment replays every time I have sex. My body reacted to my assault in a way my mind could never have imagined.

It screwed me up. At my most distressed, at a time when I wanted to imagine I was someplace else, I orgasmed. My attacker looked at me with a smug smile on his face. And for a long time, I believed I did. I thought for years that I had distorted desires and went in pursuit of that violence. I think part of me believed that if I had instigated it, I could take control of the situation and maybe I would understand why I had seemingly enjoyed the rape in the first place.

What followed was further traumatizing.

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I put myself in dangerous situations with people I had only just met. The distorted association between pleasure and violence driving me to push further and further into danger. I have had sex under bridges with strangers. I have had sex inside clubs with strangers, I have had sex with strangers in cars and let strangers into my home—only for them to leave me with deep cuts all up my back. Worst of all, this risky behavior led me to be in situations that meant I was raped twice again. I was provided with many more traumatic memories. Again, these incidences are hard to piece together but the feeling of the warm penis in my hand and then it being pushed down my throat from my third rape still haunts me.

After speaking with a friend recently who had suffered similar experiences, I discovered that I was not alone in my promiscuity after rape. And we are not the only ones. Inresearchers at Michigan State surveyed women who had experienced sexual assault: 38 percent of the women said they had engaged in more sexually risky behaviors after experiencing a sexual assault than they had before the attack. What had consumed my life, in terms of the guilt, shame and confusion, was simply a biological reaction to a sexual act. This helped to free me from the burden that I had felt all these years, the idea that I was somehow disgusting or dirty because I had orgasmed.

Rape orgasm stories to sexual assault, like mine, are underreported because Rape orgasm stories the shame and embarrassment felt by the victim. Research findings vary in terms of how many women experience orgasm during their assault, sometimes studies suggesting as little as five percent and others estimating that it is closer to 50 percent. Researchers Willy van Berlo and Roy J. Levin concluded in a reviewpublished inthat nonconsensual sexual stimulation can cause unwanted sexual arousal. Having experienced this myself, it is now very difficult for me to orgasm.

Flashbacks to the assaults prevent me from focusing on the person with whom I am currently having sex. I often have to push them away because it is too painful. This is also common.

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One study I came across while researching for this article had asked both victims of assault and Rape orgasm stories who had never experienced assault if they have suffered from any sexual problems. Of those who had been assaulted In contrast, only Sadly, rape victims are often left unsupported because of the stigma associated with and the legal difficulties with reporting rape.

And, unfortunately, according to research carried out inrape survivors are considerably more likely to have attempted suicide than individuals who have not been assaulted. I am still recovering from the assaults I suffered. I am currently undergoing therapy to try and piece together the memories I do have from my teens, in the hope I can process them and understand further the link between the rapes and my own self-loathing. I have attempted suicide multiple times in the past and I do have an unhealthy relationship with drinking. I chose to write this piece in the hope that someone who is in a similar position to me might read it.

If you are putting yourself at risk because you are pursuing the feeling of being in control or perhaps believe you enjoy the violence like I did, please stop and reassess what you are doing. You were the victim, not the perpetrator—it was not your sick fantasy.

The Doe Logo. Log in. Follow Us. Log in The Doe. Research traditionally shows that rape victims are more likely to shy away from sex. What followed is still a little Rape orgasm stories to me. I had been raped. Orgasming While Being Sexually Assaulted Is Not a Myth After speaking with a friend recently who had suffered similar experiences, I discovered that I was not alone in my promiscuity after rape. Why Rape Victim Stories Are Underreported Sadly, rape victims are often left unsupported because of the stigma associated with and the legal difficulties with reporting rape. Value yourself and your body.

It is something you should protect, not abuse.

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